light and macaroni: even the most gentle of horses have shadows

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

even the most gentle of horses have shadows

i cannot lose my shadow. it is my partner for life. its beauty shines when it is allowed out of the closet. it's only when it isn't accepted and welcomed that my shadow comes out and acts unacceptably, because it can feel that it isn't being accepted, so it does exactly as it's told, acts out in a horrid way. but look how beautiful shadows are when they are allowed to come out! oh sacred shadow. i am inviting you to come out. come out. you are beautiful and perfect and i've missed you, and i'm sorry for shutting you away. so sorry. i want to play with you now. i am not scared anymore.

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kyndaleNovember 4, 2009 at 9:10 AM
very true! beautiful shadow you have there!
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heatherNovember 4, 2009 at 9:32 AM
yeah, so inspiring those shadows are to me. .....and i put the other pictures back up. i realized what wasn't feeling right about that first post. i had done in it in a sort-of twitchy state and kept associating the whole post with that feeling. i just needed to redo it, in a simpler way, or something. it feels better now. thanks for asking cuz it made me really look at what the heck i did that for.
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kyndaleNovember 5, 2009 at 2:17 AM
I've done that before where I posted something and it didn't feel right. I have deleted a few posts before. I like what you did with the new one :) It's what I like about blogs...you can re-do a lot of things.
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farmamaNovember 5, 2009 at 9:32 PM
Hi Miss Heather,
Nice shadow! and I love the sight of your little lady on that horse! Is that your very own horse? I really hope to have horses.....someday.....
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heatherNovember 6, 2009 at 7:34 AM
sara. that horse is lady godiva, and no, she is not 'ours', but she has been my zhi's friend for two years now. we do live on horse property, though. and i hope so much that we will have a horse as a family member someday, too. i love them SO much.
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You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. khalil gibran in the prophet /// nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their environment and especially on their children than the unlived life of the parent ~ carl gustav jung /// olive says: when i grow up i'm not gonna be patient. mom says: what are you gonna be? olive says: just a girl with a cape. December 2010 /// (he says) are you sure you're not a witch, sophie? (she says) oh yes, i'm the worst kind of witch. the kind that cleans. ~from howl's moving castle /// "as mama bear lay there, she thought about how cubs learn. cubs learn by doing. they learn to walk by walking. they learn to run by running. they learn to climb by climbing. that's the answer, thought mama. the cubs will learn to help others by helping others. but questions of who, when, and where went unanswered as she drifted off to sleep." ~ from the berenstain bears lend a helping hand by stan and jan berenstain /// "i say, be proud of your scars. the good news is that for the most part that (shock/trauma) can be sutured and healed. and when i say for the most part, as you well know, you cannot heal the things you will not feel. and feeling what all the wounds are is very important. and you know that those things do leave scars. so it's never going to look like you never suffered. although i say be proud of your scars. it has everything to do with your strength and what you've endured. it's a map so to speak. a treasure map, in many ways, to the self. the deep self." clarissa pinkola estes from warming the stone child /// "in spite of its function as a reservoir for human darkness—or perhaps because of this—the shadow is the seat of creativity." carl gustav jung /// 'i'm not done dancing.' ~olive in response to me telling her it was time to get ready to go. thankfully we had enough time for her to keep dancing until she felt done, may 2010 /// 'mom, music tastes good. mmm, daddy's tastes good.' ~ olive 4/13/10 as she dances in her seat at the dinner table, while d plays on the piano /// 'she picked up her broom. she never felt quite herself without it.' jhumpa lahiri from interpreter of maladies (i am listening to this on the ipod when hiking lately. the writing is like watery love. sometimes i don't even follow the story, i just listen to the way she puts the words together. it is so inspiring.) /// ring the bells that still can ring forget your perfect offering there is a crack, a crack in everything that's how the light gets in ~leonard cohen, Anthem /// i won't ever let you down. you're a person after all. and a person is a person, no matter how small. ~horton (dr. seuss) /// I am high above the tree line Sitting cross legged on the ground When all of the forbidden fruit has fallen and rotted That's when I'm gonna come down ani difranco, studying stones /// Oh me oh my oh, look at Miss Ohio She a-runnin’ around with her rag-top down She says I wanna do right , but not right now Oh I wanna do right but not right now gillian welch, look at miss ohio /// "Every time, it's a miracle. Here are all these people, full of heartache or hatred or desire, and we all have our troubles and the school year is filled with vulgarity and triviality and consequence, and there are all these teachers and kids of every shape and size, and there's this life we're struggling through full of shouting and tears and laughter and fights and break-ups and dashed hopes and unexpected luck--it all disappears, just ike that, when the choir begins to sing. Everyday life vanishes into song, you are suddenly overcome with a feeling of brotherhood, of deep solidarity, even love and it diffuses the ugliness of everyday life into a spirit of perfect communion. Even the singers' faces are transformed... I see human beings, surrendering to music." "In the end, I wonder if the true movement of the world might not be a voice raised in song." muriel barbery, the elegance of the hedgehog /// Keep walking, though there’s no place to get to. Don’t try to see through the distances. That’s not for human beings. Move within, but don’t move the way fear makes you move. Rumi /// “hold the sadness and pain of samsara in your heart and at the same time the power and vision of the great eastern sun. then the warrior can make a proper cup of tea.” pema chodron quoting chogyam trungpa rinpoche /// Elizabeth Strout from her novel 'Olive Kitteridge': "she leaned forward, peering out the window : sweet pale clouds, the sky as blue as your hat, the new green of the fields, the broad expanse of water- seen from up here it all appeared wondrous, amazing. she remembered what hope was, and this was it. That inner churning that moves you forward, plows you through life the way the boats below plowed the shiny water, the way the plane was plowing forward to a place new, and where she was needed. she had been asked to be part of her son's life." p 202-203 /// Oscar Wilde: “One does not see anything until one sees it’s beauty. Then, and only then does it come into existence.” /// But don't confuse acceptance with defeat. You can be accepting and still desire change. And change happens *easily* when you're at peace with What Is. ~Scott Noelle, daily groove /// "“I am afraid to show you who I really am, because if I show you who I really am, you might not like it--and that's all I got.”" — Sabrina Ward Harrison (Spilling Open: The Art of Becoming Yourself) /// no one can make you feel inferior without your permission. ~Eleanor roosevelt /// courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear -- not absence of fear. ~mark twain /// this curious world which we inhabit is more wonderful than it is convenient; more beautiful than it is useful; it is more to be admired and enjoyed than used. ~henry David thoreau ///